I don't blame you, I think most people fall into this category in one way or another. Which of the following best describes your situation?
I don't want to say "the fullest" because although I am "Pressing on" towards the goal, I know I am not yet perfected, and won't be until I meet Him face to face.
I am in a comfortable position, I may not be living my Christian life to the fullest, but I am not living in gross sin either.
Sometimes I am burning hot, and living full and bold in Christ, and other times I fall into depression or slip into sin.